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I’m beginning to feel that this is not a good blogging year for me since every time I get ready to get back into the rhythm of things, I get sidetracked by something and then go missing for a period of time. That said, it’s hard to believe that it’s already been a month since I had my miscarriage. How am I doing now? I’m doing well. I think at this point in time, I’ve accepted the situation and have started to move on forward. I’m still not sure if I’m ready to try again so soon since I still have this fear of anotherRead More →

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I just wanted to leave a quick note about my recent absence. You can say that I’ve been doing a bit of self searching. I’ll be back soon once I’ve gathered my thoughts and can finally sit down to blog…. Be back soon, I promise 🙂Read More →

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Ellie turns 3 today. She’s been trying to hold up 3 fingers on her own but it seems this is the easiest way to do it. It’s really amazing how it’s been 3 years since she’s been born. Everyday is interesting with her in our lives. She talks so much these days and she can be so clever with the way she words things. She still speaks mostly Japanese but we know that she understands English perfectly fine. Sometimes we think she is way too smart for her age, especially since she can remember certain things so well that she will bring it up whenRead More →

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Last week, I had a miscarriage. There. I said it. I have been trying to avoid writing this post this past week because I just couldn’t bring myself to write the words and the feelings that came with it. I thought I was ready. I have been thinking about what to say these past few days but for the life of me, everything is so jumbled up and muddled in my head that I can’t remember what I had wanted to say. So how am I feeling right now? Tired. Exhausted. A little bit numb. Last week, though, I was a bit of a mess.Read More →

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“Bed rest”. “Threatened miscarriage”. “Cannot find a heartbeat”. Those were all things said to me today by a doctor at a hospital. This morning, when I woke up to some cramping and a little spotting, I knew something wasn’t right. As the morning dragged on, I began to bleeding heavily so I left work and went to the local hospital with Jason to get it checked out. I’ve been hoping all morning that this was just a fluke but when the doctor looked at the sonogram and tried to find a heartbeat, he couldn’t find one. He did say that the cervix isn’t dilated soRead More →

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Well now, it looks like my secret wasn’t so much a secret huh? I should have known better than to try to fool my smart blog friends and family 🙂 I’d like you guys to meet 2nd child. Yea, were not good at making up nicknames so we’re just sticking with calling him/her “2nd child” for now. I’m currently at about 6 weeks, which is still pretty early in the pregnancy. According to the doctor, the baby is still too small for her to see a heartbeat but from the look of things, 2nd child is doing well. Due date is estimated to be OctoberRead More →

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Happy bappy = “hearts” according to E. Here’s a little Valentine’s day craft I made…a handmade stamp carved from an eraser 🙂 I also baked brownies for Jason so our apartment smells like brownies…mmmm…. It’s raining in Tokyo on Valentine’s day and it’s pretty cold. Hope it’s warm and lovely where you are!Read More →

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…because I am having a hard time keeping one. I recently learned of a big secret. A real good one too. And I am having a heck of a time keeping it a secret. I want to tell so many people about it. But I can’t. Because I promised. And promises aren’t meant to be broken, right? *sigh* I really want to tell you what this secret is. But I really shouldn’t. Because I promised. Instead, I’ll just tell you that I know a secret that’s really big. And that’s it. I’m keeping my big mouth shut. I’m not telling anyone. Except for my sister.Read More →