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Sometimes it’s hard to believe that Ellie’s already 7 weeks old. I have to agree with many moms that this period of the baby’s life really goes by in a flash, even though it can sometimes feel like it’s really slow when she cries or acts fussy. Two weekends ago, the three of us made a trip out to Shinjuku for a picnic under the cherry blossoms with the Tokyo Mother’s group. It was the first time the three of us went that far for a long period of time and it was nice. Ellie was calm the entire trip and I think she enjoyedRead More →

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Up until today, Ellie has never been on public transportation. The few times I’ve gone out, I’ve walked to the locations because they’re near our apartment or I’ve taken a taxi. I guess I didn’t feel comfortable taking her into crowded, enclosed spaces. That and I always have this fear that she’ll wake up and scream bloody murder. Today, the two of us took her first trip on the subway and then later on her first trip on a bus. Both trips were good trips since she stayed asleep. We first stopped by the international school where I worked. They were having a baby showerRead More →

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After a long week of worrying whether Ellie is getting enough breastmilk from me, Jason and I decided to take her to a pediatrician to have her checked out. Yea, the breastfeeding thing is really hard and it’s been really hard on me since I just can’t for the life of me produce enough milk for her. It’s one of those things you never thought you would have to worry about but I guess everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Anyway, I digress…today, Jason and I decided to take Ellie to see the doctor and to make sure she is gaining weightRead More →

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March 15th… Today should have been the official due date for Ellie. It’s weird for some reason that she was born on a different day. *sigh* So tired these days…..mainly because Ellie and I are struggling with breastfeeding. It’s not as easy as you would think it is but we’re working hard to make it work for the both of us. I still can’t believe it’s almost 2 weeks since she was born…time is kinda mushed together into one big lump. I don’t even really remember sleeping anymore since I have to wake up frequently to feed her. Poor Jason too…he hasn’t been sleeping muchRead More →

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It’s been a long week….and a very long stay at the hospital….one that also made me cry and doubt myself as a mother…. But we are home now and a new set of worries are driving me crazy….main one being whether or not my breastmilk is enough for Ellie…. So tired and so scared of being home alone with her without Jason around. When she cries….I just don’t know what to do….so glad my mom and grandmother are coming soon…. Almost time for another feeding….feeling so exhausted right now but happy….very, very happy… One of my favorite moments when we were at the hospital… MoreRead More →